I was raised a muslim and luckily I was very curious and I started getting skeptical later on. Probably became skeptical because I was very interested in science and stumbled upon things that contradicted religion. When I asked questions regarding how life works etc I got the stupid god response, and it didn't satisfy me. I believed in it but at the same time I was still searching for answers and later on I'd ask "What about the scientific response?". Anyway after a long time when I got more interested in religions and started exploring them, I started searching for evidence for religions (mostly islam). I found no evidence for religion so I let it go, but I went from being a theist to a deitist, believing in an inactive, noninteracting god that just started the universe, set rules/laws and let it run on its own. But then I realised that there was no evidence for such a god either so I just let it all go and that's when I became an atheist. Now when I hear talk about heaven, hell and jhins/demons, miracles and magic I see how incredibly ridiculous it sounds.
It felt pretty great, it was during a CSGO match with my friends during summerbreak very very late at night and I just told my friend "I don't believe in God anymore."
Funny thing is he was an atheist and we debated it not too long before my deconversion and he told something along the lines "One day you'll realise uncle <friend> was right all along." He was.
When I became a deitist i.e left religion I felt happier because I felt like I had no purpose which means I had more freedom because I wasn't restricted by sins etc. I prefer no purpose and/or significance and no eternal life more, so that's a plus.
Tbh later on in my theist "stages" I think I "deep inside" prefered no god but I was still clinging onto faith. Keep in mind before reaching a conclusion I looked for answers, evidence etc from both "sides" and didn't let confirmation bias and/or cognitive dissonance get the best of me so pls I don't want any theists telling me that I missed something or someshit.
In the end I am very glad that I was raised muslim because on the journey to deconversion I learned quite much regarding some things e.g science, history, religion and I'm very sure I improved my critical, logical and analytical thinking by far and became more rational and my comprenhension increased because during those periods I noticed much better performance in school.
Or maybe I became an atheist because my critical, logical and analytical thinking got better and I became more rational and my comprenhension increased. Only god knows.
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It felt pretty great, it was during a CSGO match with my friends during summerbreak very very late at night and I just told my friend "I don't believe in God anymore."
Funny thing is he was an atheist and we debated it not too long before my deconversion and he told something along the lines "One day you'll realise uncle <friend> was right all along." He was.
When I became a deitist i.e left religion I felt happier because I felt like I had no purpose which means I had more freedom because I wasn't restricted by sins etc. I prefer no purpose and/or significance and no eternal life more, so that's a plus.
Tbh later on in my theist "stages" I think I "deep inside" prefered no god but I was still clinging onto faith. Keep in mind before reaching a conclusion I looked for answers, evidence etc from both "sides" and didn't let confirmation bias and/or cognitive dissonance get the best of me so pls I don't want any theists telling me that I missed something or someshit.
In the end I am very glad that I was raised muslim because on the journey to deconversion I learned quite much regarding some things e.g science, history, religion and I'm very sure I improved my critical, logical and analytical thinking by far and became more rational and my comprenhension increased because during those periods I noticed much better performance in school.
Or maybe I became an atheist because my critical, logical and analytical thinking got better and I became more rational and my comprenhension increased. Only god knows.
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