Thought crime

[Edwardo Piet]

Thank you for this. I'll take some time to read it today

You are very welcome.

I'm very familiar with it because I struggled with it for years. The last medication I came off was to treat Pure O OCD.

They don't call it Pure O here in the UK, but that's basically what it was because I had treatment for OCD but my OCD was entirely internalized.

I'm extremely familiar with this sort of thing, Lostykins. For me it was a lot more seemingly negative and severe than what you're describing in the OP though, but even those thoughts I used to have -- and still sometimes have -- are normal too, they only seem negative until you realize they're just random thoughts. "Seem" is the key word. If I had said aloud any of my thoughts that I used to have (far more regularly than I do now, they're normal so they're never going away and I should never expect them to) and worried about -- and more regularly because I worried about them -- they would seem far, far, far worse than what you describe in the OP. But they're just thoughts. Just like yours and just like everyone else's.

I wouldn't be surprised if you ever had random automatic thoughts that seem far worse in content than the ones you describe -- because everyone does! (or at least everyone is capable of having them through no fault of their own and it's not really them, so they shouldn't identify with them (they're "ego-dystonic"), it's just random thoughts).

Thoughts are certainly something that religion takes pride in guilting people about.

EDIT: Apology for the ramble, I just really am very familiar personally with this kind of thing.