I had and sometimes still have those kinds of feelings. I have type 1 bipolar disorder and PTSD though. The former has in the past contributed to me doing some very dreadful things that are thankfully no longer an issue. I hurt people though and it ultimately had a lot with ending my marriage. My ex-wife simply couldn't handle a seriously mentally ill spouse. I've been sick off and on since I was a young child, and I'm almost 50 now.
What has helped me is therapy - both cognitive behavior therapy and dialectic behavior therapy, amongst other therapies. I've been continuously in therapy since 2009, and had a spottier record of therapy since I was 17 or so. Also medication, which not everyone needs. I do. I still have episodes but they aren't as severe.
Those feelings of worthlessness and anxiety has contributed in two voluntary inpatient psychiatric hospitalizations in the last year, and perhaps half a dozen when I was 17-18, I can't recall exactly. I was misdiagnosed, and therefore prescribed fairly ineffective medication until 2009.
You say you haven't have any mental illness several times. If it's causing you distress to a degree that it causes a decline in function, it might actually qualify as mental illness. Either way, a therapist might be your best bet.
What has helped me is therapy - both cognitive behavior therapy and dialectic behavior therapy, amongst other therapies. I've been continuously in therapy since 2009, and had a spottier record of therapy since I was 17 or so. Also medication, which not everyone needs. I do. I still have episodes but they aren't as severe.
Those feelings of worthlessness and anxiety has contributed in two voluntary inpatient psychiatric hospitalizations in the last year, and perhaps half a dozen when I was 17-18, I can't recall exactly. I was misdiagnosed, and therefore prescribed fairly ineffective medication until 2009.
You say you haven't have any mental illness several times. If it's causing you distress to a degree that it causes a decline in function, it might actually qualify as mental illness. Either way, a therapist might be your best bet.
