(July 28, 2017 at 4:33 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote:(July 28, 2017 at 4:11 pm)mlmooney89 Wrote: I understand you 100%. I have felt the same thing of not being good at anything that can be a career and feeling like my life would be fulfilled with being a mother. I too went through 6 years of being told they didn't know why I couldn't have kids. During those six years I came to terms with it may never happen and I had to accept that I was just a good person doing the best I can and helping others. We resolved that if we couldn't have any of our own we would adopt. I had to accept that it was a possibility I would never feel a child grow in me but I knew that if I could give a good home to another life even if I hadn't been the one to give them the life it made me worthwhile. I know nothing anyone says will make you have self worth but there are other things in life that can help give you the fulfilling life.
Thank you for sharing. Yes, infertility is extremely painful. Especially after a baby loss.
I saw on facebook that you are expecting. I'm sorry I didn't congratulate you. I must admit I've been too jealous and bitter to congratulate my pregnant friends/acquaintances. If I may ask, how did you finally make it happen? Anything you'd recommend? Sorry, I know this is personal. No need to respond if you don't want to.
Oh I know that jealousy bug too. I didn't even want to look at another friend's baby because I was so jealous. I ended up writing in a blog that I doubt more than three people read and I went into the jealousy thing. Asked why people that -I- deemed unworthy of having children got them so easily and why I was still without when I felt it was what I was supposed to do in life. I didn't want me commenting on this to be about me being pregnant I wanted it to be about the fact that I understand the feeling of not feeling accomplished, expecting to by being a mother, and getting those hopes dashed. Hell even pregnant I'm feeling it because I can't quit my job due to financial reasons and someone else will be taking care of my child for most of the day. I feel like the one thing I've set my heart on being accomplished in I won't even get right.
As for how it was fixed was because my doctor realized I had PCOS which is a disorder that leads to diabetes so he figured we could go down that path. He gave me medicine that made me really sick but it evened out my insulin levels (They weren't crazy enough for me to actually have diabetes but crazy enough to make my body stop ovulating. Once the levels were fixed my body did what it was supposed to by itself. Of course I was so sick on the meds I didn't notice when the meds stopped making me sick and turned into morning sickness so I didn't know I was pregnant until I was 2 months in.
“What screws us up the most in life is the picture in our head of what it's supposed to be.”
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