(July 28, 2017 at 4:33 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote:(July 28, 2017 at 2:15 pm)Cthulhu Dreaming Wrote: I had and sometimes still have those kinds of feelings. I have type 1 bipolar disorder and PTSD though. The former has in the past contributed to me doing some very dreadful things that are thankfully no longer an issue. I hurt people though and it ultimately had a lot with ending my marriage. My ex-wife simply couldn't handle a seriously mentally ill spouse. I've been sick off and on since I was a young child, and I'm almost 50 now.
What has helped me is therapy - both cognitive behavior therapy and dialectic behavior therapy, amongst other therapies. I've been continuously in therapy since 2009, and had a spottier record of therapy since I was 17 or so. Also medication, which not everyone needs. I do. I still have episodes but they aren't as severe.
Those feelings of worthlessness and anxiety has contributed in two voluntary inpatient psychiatric hospitalizations in the last year, and perhaps half a dozen when I was 17-18, I can't recall exactly. I was misdiagnosed, and therefore prescribed fairly ineffective medication until 2009.
You say you haven't have any mental illness several times. If it's causing you distress to a degree that it causes a decline in function, it might actually qualify as mental illness. Either way, a therapist might be your best bet.
Wow, thank you for sharing your story.I had no idea you were in psychiatric hospitalization. That's really hard. I'm glad you've been able to get help through therapy and battle on through this. I can't imagine what it must have felt like to go through a divorce all while trying to deal with your own internal struggles.
I see there's a lot of people suggesting a see a therapist. I guess I just don't know that I really need to or that it would help. I am able to function like a normal person, I just feel very down on myself because I haven't been able to accomplish anything or give my life any meaning, especially with the infertility.
There's a lot to the story but it's not something I really want to post in open forum.
The thing with therapy, is you can can benefit from it even if you aren't suffering from MI. It sounds to me like these feelings and thoughts are at least somewhat distressing. I have intrusive thoughts as well. There are skills you can learn to make them not so distressing. What do you have to lose? Don't go to a psychiatrist unless you're interested in taking medication, which I get the impression you don't. See a psychologist with a PsyD if you can, the better educated therapists are often the best.
