Sorry to hear you're going through this, CL. Something I've learned when I identified as an atheist a few years ago, and coming back towards that stance now, is that I can handle feelings of worthlessness better as an atheist, than I did as a theist. I think as a theist, I felt like Someone should be unburdening me or something. What kind of a god lets me suffer so? I would feel even worse as a theist, when I'd struggle with everyday issues like that, and you come to find out, that these feelings can be very normal. If they linger, and cause you to be unproductive in your life, then it could be time to see a counselor. I find that I self reflect more when I'm not turning to faith, to solve my issues. That said, I still yearn to turn to faith, because it serves sometimes as an escape. ''God will use my suffering for good,'' is what I'd tell myself. But, that was just me trying to make me feel better. I don't wish to sway your thinking on faith, but just sharing that it's been my experience, that faith can't solve everything, and sometimes, we think it should - and that can compound the problem. 
