My dad hates me/is kicking me out

[Cinjin]

Alright, first things first:

Suicide is a really foolish option. Those who were once formerly suicidal always express extreme gratitude for those that helped them through the rough spot and seem to always mention what a shame it would've been to miss out on the life they currently have.

Secondly? Do you have a vehicle? In tough spots, you can sleep in a vehicle if worse comes to worse - should your dad give you the surprise boot.

Thirdly? Where are you located? There are atheists groups you can reach out to and there is always soup kitchens if you live near a major metropolis. (Again these are short term fixes and you should be concentrating on getting yourself a steady income.)

Fourthly? Don't make excuses. Life can be a horrible bitch ... it can also be amazing if you're one of those people who refuses to be beaten down. Far too many people want someone else to fight their battle for them. This is your burden and you must bear it or convert. Of course, this is your choice, but maybe, someday you could be one of those people with an amazing inspirational story to share