this may be it!

[Drich]

Drich, I wish you success and hope that you and your business make it through this time period.

That being said, a god that oversees 93 billion light-years of space stuff caring about a human and his refrigeration business? Such a bizarre idea. I can't understand it. The ego it requires to think we - and our social constructs - are so important... eludes me.

I don't like to see humanity fail, I don't think any sane human  does. But logic and facts matter. 

It always bugged me that my late mother took communion.I never stopped her from doing it,

that is a mightly white thing to do... as other 'savages' would obviously made her stop.

but between that and her doctors, I knew doctors would extend her life, and they did as much as they could. But a God did not make her live forever.

why did she beat you for fun and not confess?
how bout this sport. pretend for a moment that science knows about .1% of the knowable universe. and may not have such a lock on the after life that you can say that with certainty. in fact if my life and what I have literally seen and experienced with my own eyes ears and hands, her life is indeed secure. if she was not beating you on the side out of spite.

And Vishnu nor Thor or Allah or Yahweh or Buddha have the power to extend eternity to humans. Death sucks, nobody wants it. But it is a reality all will face. It does not mean, in accepting that, that the one life one has as to be viewed as grim and fatalistic.

death is nothing. you should fear death no more than fearing sleep after a hard days work. it is the resurrection that will suck.

Drich, you like millions, if not billions of humans worldwide, are rightfully scared of this virus. I am too.

this virus i think i honestly already got like a week after it was reported. i still have a cough. my mom got 'the flu' from church a korean church were people come and go from korea weekly.. all the symptoms including the little known diarrhea.. reason the run on toilet paper. all except the 99*F temp i went to 98 or something and that was it. by the time people were getting tested i was almost over all of it. you can hear it in my voice in some of my videos. even joke about having the zeeka virus/the pandemic when trump was up for election last time.

i'm not even afraid of loosing everything. my purpose here is to show or share as it happens how God intervenes or helps with my life.

But it isn't a result of a punishment to different tribes, or a battle between Superman vs Lex Luthor, or Darth Vader vs Yoda. This virus just is. Just like the meteor that wiped out the Dinosaurs. I think humans will survive this short term. But regardless, our species will not live forever. Even the sun has a lifespan.

we will see, but you might be surprised my life is not so random.. or it could be I am in God's hands here.

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Most of you know i have a small refrigeration company. who designs and upfits cargo vans for a range of temps for speciality product delivery. from -20F deep frozen to 35F cool frig temps to 200f warming ovens for cooked food or we could put all of that into a single van. been at this since 2001 ish with a partner 2003 ish on our own. went from building one offs in my dads garage on the weekend to s single bay single van shop to s shared two bay to a single 10,000 space to 20 ac space to now over 50 under ac and a car lot on top.

in a span of about 20 years. 2 weeks ago i celebrated my wedding anniversary when we left work friday we had 9 different deals on the table. cars being sold freezer vans being built. had a mustang roll out on saturday. monday one one phone call all day and that was the finance company making final arrangements on the mustang.

tuesday I called all those other leads to see what was up. everyone is holding money waiting to see what will happen. we have two job we are finishing up now, and after this we have nothing. have to send everyone home. which should allow us two weeks of revenue at a min level of operation. which if we can get the subsidy loan may take us to june. if this goes longer than june there will not be enough time in the rest of my season to cover the expenses. IE i will have to basically borrow/borrowed almost a 1years revenue to try and catch next years busy season.

I won't let the company take on that much debt. we have about a 10-15% debt ratio now. which is alot. I will shut everything down before taking on more than i know i can payback with in a few years.

sharing this to show me stepping out like the rest of the country, being lead down a dark and most likely fatal path. I want to share with you the good bad and ugly of how God works in my life. It may work out the way I want it may work out the way he wants it may all fall to chance. i do not know for sure.

Right now i called everyone i know in this business as we all kinda know each other and spoke to a few and everyone is in my boat. but they have generational companies dads dad owned it everything paid for ect... meaning the will obviously last longer.

This may also mean the end of my weekly free time i spend here typing away.

So far we started with a prayer to ask God to open our hearts and minds to what needs to be done and if we need to make a move to close this door completely and open another in the direction we are to go. We filled out the government money app to see if we qualify. and we are shutting down all non essential services like advertising and car fax that sort of stuff tying to make out dollars stretch.

Here ya go drich.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZsvF4Jfzw0

maybe you haven't seen my video on prayer

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if i make it? what if i thrive? what if i make more money here in this mess than i have in years past?

that's what this is about. or it's about my new direction if i don't.

Your god is sending you a message?

funny you should ask I was going to give my up date.

I prayed for wisdom and the opportunity to serve and know when to quit.

I was reminded by someone I haven't seen in years of all that God has brought us through from our beginnings till now. 
wife shared with me we were almost 50% more in debt that I knew i was almost ready to quit and then Going through the gov forms on this loan thing found out our debit to income ratio was about 17.5% or .175 normal income to debt is .4 or 40%. we for years and years were almost cash only until we got the car dealership and had to get what is known as a floor plan. allows you to buy cars at auto auctions. by sign and drive,
anyway this brough out debt up along with cash flow loans from the end of lst year which ended early. to me this was alot of money but in truth was only about 17%. So that kept us in the game finish out all of the paper work today so we will see. we are down 90% of the revenue we made this time last year.

Despite all the gubment help we have to come up with like 20K to close out the month. I petition/prayed to god that this 20K is my 'daily bread' what i needed.

started another video this morning and the phone rang for a equipment quote 8500.00 then again this guy needed a transmission job on a truck for 3500.00 then again compressor job 1800.00. dude wants a pick up truck to send to Puerto Rico 5500.00 plus fees and shipping. plus random payments from stuff we financed. at the end of 3 hours we got our daily bread. mind you my phone has not rang for work since the monday i got back and it was the finance company for the mustang. not only that i got 3 guys coming back to work monday...