(November 17, 2011 at 7:14 pm)Vaeolet Lilly Blossom Wrote:****** Wrote:I no how it feels when I lost my virginity I was raped. By the guy I was in love with none the less... He would have gotten it eventually. But I wasnt ready when he wanted it so he held me down and took a mile away from my house. Then when he was done he got up smiled at me and asked me how it was. And because I had no where else to go I stayed with him for two years while he verbally, mentaly, sexually and phsically abused me. When I finally left it wasnt for those reasons. It was because I found a meth pipe in his sweater pocket. Everything made sense at that momment. He eneded up doing far more damage then even I knew... Now that I finally found a good guy I still flinch when he reaches out to touch me to fast. And no matter how long im not with the abuser I will never forget what he has done to me and many other girls. U r not alone. Im so happy u have someone new also.
I have gotten so many more stories like this than I would have liked since I posted a quick indirect synopsis of what happened to me... I'm shaking so much now. :S
VlB, your's is a burden much too large for any one person to support alone. Please take my advice and go to a rape/abuse support group. It is not a weakness to seek help. Do something good for yourself and actively try to heal the wounds that so many have put on you. You are too good of a person to be walking around hurting like this. You deserve better than this, seek help.
I have studied the Bible and the theology behind Christianity for many years. I have been to many churches. I have walked the depth and the breadth of the religion and, as a result of this, I have a lot of bullshit to scrape off the bottom of my shoes. ~Ziploc Surprise
