Coming out of the closest as an atheist

[HarryStanluv25]

It's frustrating for me because I don't really remember why I didn't believe. I just...stopped. Guess it was when I was around 15 or so and life was getting hard and from that I started questioning god and everything. I can't recall ever telling my mom I was atheist either. To this day it bothers her slightly when I use the term but I simply tell her it's not a word to fear. It is what I am so just be okay with it. And she is I think, by now. She knows I don't believe and doesn't force me to either. She even makes the occasional comment about Christians or something we see on TV. So knowing she's accepted it is great. My dad was one of those kids who hated being forced to church growing up and never went to church with us when I was a kid so he's fine with me too. If only others were...

My aunt is in denial about it and drops in the Jesus thing here and there. I doubt she'll ever accept my beliefs. Same with my brother. It's pretty much impossible to talk about it with him as he feels he knows everything about anything. And since he believes others have to too. He will continue to force me to believe if that conversation pops up again. The way he is...makes me feel insecure, stupid, uncomfortable, unworthy... like my views don't even matter... I don't know if he realizes this but until he stops putting my opinion down he'll never accept either. Just because he's been through so much sh** in life and apparently god helped him through it, I am an idiot if I don't choose the same path. That sums it up really.

It's unfortunate when certain people will never accept you're an Atheist. But if there is one thing I am putting my foot down on is I will not let these people control my beliefs or force me to think or do anything I don't believe in. *sigh*