I don't ever remember believing god was real, truth be told I never used to think about it or care about the effects of religion until 9/11. Always been atheist.
You are currently experiencing a lucky and very brief window of awareness, sandwiched in between two periods of timeless and utter nothingness. So why not make the most of it, and stop wasting your life away trying to convince other people that there is something else? The reality is obvious.