Having a case of double depression

[Angrboda]

I'm sorry to hear that you aren't well. It's good to see you posting again, though. I've been in a depression since early December, but I'm managing.

I'm not sure I fully understand your reasons for swearing off relationships. I've sworn off relationships because I know dealing with me and my chronic suicidalism is more of a burden than I would want to put on another person. Still, I miss sex. A lot. When I was younger, I commented to a friend that I was avoiding relationships until I "got myself together." His response was that I had it backwards, that we get ourselves together through relating to other people. While granted, this isn't always the case, I think it's a valid point that people and relationships can be either a disadvantage, or an advantage (or both, simultaneously). I know the work I did as a volunteer when I was younger contributed greatly to my life and my development.

Anyway, glad to hear from you again. I hope you weather the current storm successfully and return more often.