If these resident theists really talk to god..

[Drich]

I also want to add something drich. If your not willing to provide any evidence of your illness, then why do you pass it as evidence of god? Do you think people will take your word for such a claim. I would never expect people to just take my word for something like that.

You new so I will be happy to say this for the thousandth time. The things that happened to me, they all add up for proof for ME. Not you. I am only relaying these things to show you that God is ready willing and able to provide you with exactly what you need to establish and maintain a real working relationship with you this is what I needed among a great number of other traumatic things to get my hard atheist heart back on track. When you a/s/k Youre asking for your own relationship with Him. But I took it a step further, and told God to do whatever it takes to change me the way I needed to be changed.

That is what got me I trouble last time. Because I offered to pray the very same prayer that I prayed for myself that I believe left me infected with AIDS, and pray it on you're Alls behalf. To have God do what ever it takes to establish and maintain a strong relationship with Him. To rip out whatever is in your heart keeping you from him. Whether it be health, wealth or a specific loved one. To take whatever from you that you prize the most and keep it. So that it may change whatever need be changed in your life so that you may have a deep and strong relationship with Him.

But again the worshipers of life and self, saw this as a blaspheme against pop morality and 'human decency' (one of many thousands of unforgivable sins a Christian can commit against soceity/non Christians ) and was told to die for it. Which now brings us back full circle.

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If you don't want to read a life story, skip this, but I hope Drich reads it.

When I was a teenager, I developed epilepsy. I was super-religious and went to church every Sunday. As I got older, my epilepsy got worse and worse. Granted, I didn't go to church because I had a weekend job. Eventually, I got so sick I couldn't work anymore, and I was scared to death of God punishing me eith seizures. Then I started meditating and studying Buddhism. My fear of God weakened, and my seizures lightened up signifcantly. I began taking less and less medicine. Eventually, I gave up Buddhism and became a complete atheist. My illness lightened up even more.

What's the point of my telling my life story? To show Drich that faith isn't necessary to overcome a disease. Do I still have seizures? Yes, but they aren't anywhere near as bad as they used to be. Having faith in myself helped me, not faith in some supreme being. Are atheists perfect? No, they are only human, just like Christians. Drich, you fon't need faith in a god to save yourself, just live life to the best of your abilities, and good things will happen to you. And bad things, too. That's just a fact of life. It doesn't favor anyone, no matter what they believe.

When I was very young my mother was a Buddhist, and I had seizures. Really bad ones. I actually remember them. They would start as a slight tremor in a little toe. Almost like so e one grabbed my little toe and began to shake me ever so slightly at first and then more and more violently. Till I woke up with everyone holding me down. I even got to ride on a fire truck once because I swallowed my tongue, and they could not clear it properly...

The moral of my story. Sickness is sometimes just sickness, with nor rhyme or reason to it. What made my aids meaningful was I asked for an oppertunity to connect to God more deeply. Then my world ended, leaving only me and God in it. Thus answered prayer.

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Cue *you didn't do it right and *not a true christian, explanations to sweep you under his rug.

I have no idea whether or not your a true Christian. Not my concern. My concern is to relay my story where ever I think it may help some one.