Atheist vs. Christian Personalities

[BlackMason]

Quirky, narcissistic, poor listener, beligerent about everything, odd (in a bad way) false/poor self image, constantly pessimistic, rude, inconsiderate, selfish or just simply crazy...
Most of them are some or all of the above. I have my reasons for liking them and having them as friends, but I can't deny the negative feelings I get sometimes.
I'm not talking about people who don't give a damned about religion one way or another... I mean people who really care about the issue.

Ever since becoming an atheist, I've become a bit of an asshole myself. I wasn't one when I was christian. Reading your list, I see a lot of what I'm becoming. This is a brilliant thread. I'll try give some reasons and maybe someone might confirm or correct.

I think that the atheists described in your list are largely deconverts hitting out at life. Think about it. You just realised that you've been played for a substantial part of your life. I mean I was christian for 15 years! That crutch you been leaning on just crumbled. You realise life is real and the finality of death is suffocating. The fairy tail's gone. Little red riding hood actually got raped. So then the pessimism kicks in. Life is random. We're only here as a consequence of nature.

When you've licked your wounds you transform. You survived. You're a survivor! You just escaped the matrix. You are the one! And then that's when the ego kicks in. This results in the narcism. "Man why can't these foolish theists get it? I'm so smart." So now that you're the man, why the fuck you gotta listen to anyone? Poor listener...check.

But you're bitter. You look back and think why didn't I know better. Why me? You sometimes talk out loud saying something like fuck god. Even if you're real I want you to know that because you didn't answer me when I needed you, you can go right ahead and fuck yourself. Your bitterness turns to belligerence.

Now that heaven doesn't exist, what you gotta play nice for? No one's in the sky with a big clip board tallying your good deeds anymore. In rebellion to this non-existent god, I actively forced myself to stop giving money to beggars on the road. I guess I wanted to pull some power back. I was being nice all this time because of the duress posed by hell. So I needed to regain some power and made a point about being selfish. Isn't that fucked up? I had to deny desperate people just to prove that I had the power and god didn't. God made me give in the past so each beggar I denied was a fuck you to god. Beggars were just caught in the cross fire between me and an imaginary being. Wow.

I doubt that life long atheists fit these adjectives. I'd love to see formal stats comparing life long atheists to deconverts. I think that's where you'll find your trend.