Try and prove me wrong on this...

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Since when I die, I will go nowhere in the end and there is no God or afterlife of eternal joy, then maybe I shouldn't feel so bad and have such value towards pleasure and life itself since obviously none of these things have value anyway. Because if they were something special with value, it would all have an afterlife of eternal joy and a God granted for these things in the end. So maybe instead, I should just not care about anything and end my life since I have severe anhedonia which makes my life that much more meaningless and not worth living to me.

I seek ultimate power and status and such just like a powerful anime villan. If I can't obtain these things (obviously life has completely prevented me from obtaining these things by not only giving me anhedonia and taking away my one and only source of true power and such which would be pleasure, but also has denied me the other as well which would be an afterlife and a God in the end), then life is nothing to me and I might as well just end it. I have to admit, I admired my attitude of seeking ultimate status and power and such through those things, but at this point, none of these things can be obtained and my attitude and life no longer matters.