basket case rant

[Dotard]

I often have my ex-wife and a couple ex-girlyfriends contact me. Usually it is when they find themselves divorced, broken-up or unhappy with their latest.

Out of the three that have done this, one I haven't heard from in approx. three years. Two usually about once a year, more or less.

Never have I had any bad feelings at our meetings. We go to dinner, maybe a movie and always, always fuck.
I look forward to hearing from them and it is always pleasant. We chat into all hours of the night and laugh as if we were long time friends and newly-wed lovers all at the same time. Good times.

They will hang out regularly with me, eating, fucking, movie watching, having fun and telling me about this guy or that guy they just met or had a fling with or whatever. Then when they begin a relationship with someone I'll hear from them less and less until not at all until the next time.

I miss them and hope they'll come around again next year, but at the same time I wish them the happy relationship whereas I'll never hear from them again. Mixed bag o' feelings. Same mixed emotions you would have seeing your mother-in-law drive off a cliff.... in your brand-new Mercedes.

I love them all. Their happiness being meaningful to me where it brings me more pleasure to see them in a happy relationship then it would bring me discomfort and anger. That, IMO, would indicate MY happiness was more important than theirs, thus my 'love' for them would come into question.


Did any of that make any sense? If it did, please explain it to me. I lost myself somewhere after "...until the next time."