This is exactly what got me questioning my faith in god and ultimately coming to my senses.
I have a mental illness and relied upon god to help me. Overtime I when I went through an episode, I thought that I was being punished for something I had done. That combined with severe depression is not a good combination. In hindsight, what infuriates me is that people would tell me god will only give you as much as you can take. Are you fucking kidding me? First question...WHY? Next question short of killing myself how the fuck did they know what my threshold for suffering is?
My pastor took me to an actual person who claimed to cast out demons. It really freaked me out and I declined. He was so mad, he told me I wasted his valuable time.
Since I have decided to rely on myself, I don't have to fear if I am a bad person, I can just focus on getting better.
BTW this has been the best year I have had in a long time!
I have a mental illness and relied upon god to help me. Overtime I when I went through an episode, I thought that I was being punished for something I had done. That combined with severe depression is not a good combination. In hindsight, what infuriates me is that people would tell me god will only give you as much as you can take. Are you fucking kidding me? First question...WHY? Next question short of killing myself how the fuck did they know what my threshold for suffering is?
My pastor took me to an actual person who claimed to cast out demons. It really freaked me out and I declined. He was so mad, he told me I wasted his valuable time.
Since I have decided to rely on myself, I don't have to fear if I am a bad person, I can just focus on getting better.
BTW this has been the best year I have had in a long time!
