My story! I am an Ex-Muslim, became and Atheist. I was visited by an Angel of God.

[Iroscato]

"spinning poetry from the threads of the universe", how metapoetic

Thanks ^_^ (Adds 'metapoetic' to personal lexicon)

Prince; I am sorry if I came off as hostile to you at first. I was also subjected to abuse by my mother, though she was as far from religious as it's possible to be, so I know how you feel to an extent. So I'm trusting that you're not a troll, and I apologise if I thought you were one at first.
I think perhaps there are multiple factors that were key in your experience - the religious torment you suffered making you suggestible, depression, half-waking from sleep, etc. But the cruelty you suffered is probably the biggest one. What I'm saying is, whatever you've been put through, you can beat it, and no deity or supernatural entity needs to help you through it. Only by using your own strength and the strength of those who mutally love you can you continue to grow stronger.