My story! I am an Ex-Muslim, became and Atheist. I was visited by an Angel of God.

[Iroscato]

It honestly sounds to me like a holdover from the doublethink that a religious upbringing requires of the human mind. All that stretching and straining to accomodate, reconcile or outright ignore countless logical inconsistencies and contradictions in badly translated and factually dubious holy books does not a healthy mind make. Prince appears to be deeply conflicted and obviously troubled, the spectre of abusively ingrained indoctrination struggling against the logical thought processes that can come so naturally to a human brain once it tries.

In this case, what do you suggest i should do? This experience is stuck into my brain, cannot erase it out of my memory. I tried to consume alcohol, smoke cigars in hope to destroy some of my brain cells, so i would forget the whole experience that ever happen in the first place. It sounds like a desperate attempt to blow my brains out! 


Psychologically, yes my mind is deeply conflicted between reality and fictitious events.  

First of all, don't turn to drink or drugs, that's the VERY last thing you need, and it doesn't work anyway.
Second, come to terms with who you are. You have done nothing wrong, absolutely nothing - it's the absurdity of your upbringing and your country that is at fault here. You deserve happiness, not what amounts to self- harming through substance abuse.
Whatever it is you saw - angel, demon, alien, hallucination - it shook you, for better or worse. But that doesn't change the fact that you saw it, or at least thought you did. Look deeper into the links and evidence people have provided in this very thread, and make up your own mind.