What's everyone up to right now?

[Joods]

Watching two of my cats playing with an app I installed on my phone just for them. They've been holding my tablet hostage for half an hour.

[DespondentFishdeathMasochismo]

You know what I hate about art? So many people are pretentious dip shits. They stand around listening or looking at something, thinking they're supposed to appreciate it. I see it all the time with people who talk about art who want to name the most influential artists. Yeah, it's kinda cool to know what artists are influential if you care, but none of that shit fucking matters. It's academic, it's boring. Art isn't about standing around trying to judge whether or not you can force yourself to appreciate something. You find the stuff which gives you a real connection on a spiritual level. By spiritual I mean reaching outside of what you already know, to experience things beyond yourself. That's what art is for me, it's a connection to new ideas and emotions, it reshapes your brain. I don't give a fuck about led zeppelin or some bullshit. There's probably a group of kids in their basement somewhere who never even recorded their own music, who made vastly more appealing music than those mainstream faux art dip shits. There's artists vastly more interesting than some fucker in a museum, just doodling in their text book in school.

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I really want dermabrasion therapy for my face.

[Edwardo Piet]

Feeling sort of disgusted that I revealed the fact I've never had sex, just to have members of this forum call me "virgin boy".

I lost my virginity at 25. I was on these forums from about age 19-24 or something before returning now at 27...

...I always made it very clear that I was a virgin for all those years I was on here previously.

Be a proud virgin, I certainly should have been. When I first lost my virginity it was a good experience but my girlfriend that I had for a year and 4 months totally wasn't worth it....seriously. When people used to tell me that relationships are more trouble than they're worth I was like "yeah right", but seriously, they can be. I ended up getting with someone who was totally not right for me and I knew it - but I got with her anyway out of desperation. BAD IDEA. a year and 4 months of sex with her wasn't worth shit... I'd rather be alone without sex forever than that.

I wanna work on myself and if I can get causal sex that's great. If I find someone right for me, that's great too..... if I find an open relationship right for me, that's great too. But never again will I not prioritize myself first, never again will I make the mistake of being with someone sheerly out of loneliness and horniness and desperation.

So my advice to you is this: However painful you may find your virginity - and believe me I can relate to that I was a virgin until 25 and I was super depressed about it - it is NOT worth desperation or being with the wrong person.

If you are sad about your virginity but could certainly lose it but are waiting for the right person then.... hell, I couldn't even find the wrong person until I was 25, and then when I found that wrong person it was worse than no person. Trust me, the pain of virginity whilst waiting for the right person is better than being for the wrong person. Hang in there until you get some good casual sex or relationships. High standards is good.

Anyway what am I up to right now? Looking forward to meeting Pocahontas (Pocaracas on these forums) today at 13:30 GMT... it's currently 1:45 GMT and I intend to go to bed at 3:00 and sleep until 11:00. That gives me time to get ready and to get there.

[DespondentFishdeathMasochismo]

I'm so fucking sick of feeling worried that I will say the wrong thing to people in person. I am just naturally a really shy person, I am not the kind of guy who can just go out and talk to people, expecting to make friends. I am always afraid that I will say the wrong stuff and make things awkward. It really sucks because I feel like I have a lot to offer people in terms of friendship and stuff. I have been on a dating website for the past 8 months, I got a couple hundred people to like my profile in that time, most of them aren't really attractive or interesting or in my age range. It's just like, I feel like there's got to be way more to life than that though. It feels like there's no way I can ever have a relationship, it feels like there's no way that I could ever meet anyone. My mind is too rich with unique thoughts, the line between what is appropriate and acceptable to share with others is blurred.

This is what happened with the last person I tried to be friends with in person. It was just some guy who I knew from high school. He was in a band and liked music a lot and I went added him on facebook, went to a few concerts and tried awkwardly talking to him a few times. He decided that I was too creepy for him and he removed me from facebook, one of the 3 people who I had left on facebook. (I got tired of having all these people who don't really know me that well, just looking at whatever stupid shit I want to post.) Here's how he decided to remove me from facebook. I was at a cafe, really lonely and miserable, it was earlier this year and the local high school let out, there were kids everywhere. There were 3 couple adjacent to me in the cafe, just happily talking, I saw some holding hands on the side walk in town. It made me feel so depressed, I just went on facebook and said fuck all these people, then he said I'm too disturbing, so he removed me from facebook. He never even liked me anyways. I removed the last of the people I knew in person from facebook, I started a new account with a fake name so I could just talk to my one friend I know online.

I fucking hate trying to get along with people. It's so frustrating that you always have to think of the right thing to say with them. I wish that there weren't any rules, I wish that there wasn't this structured ritual that you have to follow. I just feel so fucking miserable, I hate this stupid fucking world I live in. Why is there nothing about this world that actually suits me? I am just destined to live a fucking horrid miserable life for the rest of my fucking life, while all these people around me are experiencing so much joy. I fucking hate when people experience happiness, I fucking hate talented people who get ahead in life. Fuck them.

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Feeling sort of disgusted that I revealed the fact I've never had sex, just to have members of this forum call me "virgin boy".

I lost my virginity at 25. I was on these forums from about age 19-24 or something before returning now at 27...

...I always made it very clear that I was a virgin for all those years I was on here previously.

Be a proud virgin, I certainly should have been. When I first lost my virginity it was a good experience but my girlfriend that I had for a year and 4 months totally wasn't worth it....seriously. When people used to tell me that relationships are more trouble than they're worth I was like "yeah right", but seriously, they can be. I ended up getting with someone who was totally not right for me and I knew it - but I got with her anyway out of desperation. BAD IDEA. a year and 4 months of sex with her wasn't worth shit... I'd rather be alone without sex forever than that.

I wanna work on myself and if I can get causal sex that's great. If I find someone right for me, that's great too..... if I find an open relationship right for me, that's great too. But never again will I not prioritize myself first, never again will I make the mistake of being with someone sheerly out of loneliness and horniness and desperation.

So my advice to you is this: However painful you may find your virginity - and believe me I can relate to that I was a virgin until 25 and I was super depressed about it - it is NOT worth desperation or being with the wrong person.

If you are sad about your virginity but could certainly lose it but are waiting for the right person then.... hell, I couldn't even find the wrong person until I was 25, and then when I found that wrong person it was worse than no person. Trust me, the pain of virginity whilst waiting for the right person is better than being for the wrong person. Hang in there until you get some good casual sex or relationships. High standards is good.

Anyway what am I up to right now? Looking forward to meeting Pocahontas (Pocaracas on these forums) today at 13:30 GMT... it's currently 1:45 GMT and I intend to go to bed at 3:00 and sleep until 11:00. That gives me time to get ready and to get there.

That's very true. I only want to have sex with someone who I feel emotional warmth to. I could never have sex "casually", it would probably just feel forced to me.

[Losty]

Personally I think "casual" sex is where it's at. But not strangers. Someone who I trust as a good friend. Relationships are not my thing.

[DespondentFishdeathMasochismo]

Ugh fucking hell.

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I love this. Kind of sad ending.

http://www.omocat-blog.com/post/67079004...na-make-it

[Edwardo Piet]

Personally I think "casual" sex is where it's at. But not strangers. Someone who I trust as a good friend. Relationships are not my thing.

I only had the one relationship I had purely for the sex and because she didn't wanna do a casual friends with benefits thing... I feel super guilty for being that desperate. Does it make me a bad person that I essentially stayed with someone just for sex do you think? I know you never said I was Losty, no one has. That's me talking. I feel like I'm a bad person for that... I say that I was just so lonely and desperate that my brains went out the window and I was in denial... but is that an excuse? I think I'm a nice guy, I try to be a nice guy, but I sometimes have felt like I deserve to be treated badly in a relationship when I was with them purely for sex and because I was lonely. It was all about how my esteem was slow and it just felt so good to know that someone liked me "that way".

Anyway... I'll be all right, but I do feel like a shithead for this. If I could have just gotten a casual friends with benefit thing but it wasn't available... but from now on I feel better about myself and I'd rather go without casual sex forever than have an actual relationship just for the sex no matter how shitty it is to me, simply because I can't get any casual sex  



Anyway what am I up to right now? Chatting to a certain awesome person on Skype, for like 10 minutes before bed... and tomorrow! Pocahontas meet up with Eevee!

[DespondentFishdeathMasochismo]

Holy shit that was scary. My thumb just twitched a few times. What if I am developing some horrible neurological disease 

[vorlon13]

Might be tardive dyskinesia.

I diagnosed (correctly) someone with it a few years ago. Wrote it down for him and sent him to the doc to ask about it, and bingo.

(I'm at a slight risk of it myself so am familiar with what it looks like)

[Jackalope]

Been having an anxiety attack all day. Way worse than my baseline anxiety, that is.