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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 18, 2015 at 6:47 pm
Wow I never knew you thought so well of me when we haven't interacted much Iro.
I've mostly seen your awesome awesome posts and the adorable friendship you seem to have with the wonderful Losty.
Also I have seen you in Mafia.
I hope you know that I'm super happy you like me so much and the feeling is completely mutual because I think you're awesome as fuck too.
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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 19, 2015 at 4:39 pm
Won't everybody just get a room!?!? 
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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 19, 2015 at 4:41 pm
(This post was last modified: December 19, 2015 at 7:47 pm by Edwardo Piet.)
I have one. I just need to move out and find another one, and then maybe one day I can have sex in that new room. Or just find a hotel.
Btw guys, I'm glad to say that following from the low is a high for me. Best I've felt in ages and I have already returned to the forums. Felt better since a couple of nights ago... and I returned at some point yesterday.
I'm glad the sadness and tears didn't last too long. Fuck my mood is high as fuck now, high on life, love life, so happy.... ahhhh Bliss 
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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 19, 2015 at 5:17 pm
(December 16, 2015 at 9:18 pm)Quantum Wrote: Silly you
Who in their right minds would expect anyone to be light hearted and funny and enthusiastic and interesting all the time? That's an inhuman demand. No no, we're still going to be here even if you're being unenthusiastic and annoyed and unfunny for a while
^This.
We love you, Evie!
"Of course, everyone will claim they respect someone who tries to speak the truth, but in reality, this is a rare quality. Most respect those who speak truths they agree with, and their respect for the speaking only extends as far as their realm of personal agreement. It is less common, almost to the point of becoming a saintly virtue, that someone truly respects and loves the truth seeker, even when their conclusions differ wildly."
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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 19, 2015 at 5:19 pm
(December 18, 2015 at 6:24 pm)Kaiser Wrote: (December 16, 2015 at 9:09 pm)Evie Wrote: I was supposed to sleep earlier tonight but this is one of those things where I don't wanna go to sleep before I start to feel better.
I don't know what it is but I feel like I need a break from the forums for a few days. And maybe even the internet altogether. Or maybe I'll respond to Skype and Facebook messages but not take the lead.
I feel like I need a few days break to just cry over and over. I don't know what it is but I feel like a big part of me that matters a lot to me has gone. I feel like the enthusiastic happy Evie isn't there anymore. I feel like all the irritating and lame parts of me is all that remains. I feel like when people care about me and like me still it's because they haven't caught on what an idiot I've become lately.
I feel like each person who cares about me and is a good friend to me has a tiny part of them that knows this is all true. But it's like, they don't want to beieve it because they want to believe the happy cheerful nice and kind and lovable and interesting Evie is still here. But I don't think he is anymore. Well, I may still be kind and I care. But that's about it I feel like everything I say is a cliché, lame, uninteresting, unfunny, unsexy and pointless.
I feel like it's only a matter of time before people not only get bored of me, but find some reason to avoid me. I know many people care about me and love me and think a lot of me... but at this rate how long will that last?
I think I'm gonna be sad and crying for a few days. I hope to return to AF in a few days, maybe give me a week tops.
I'll still be on Skype and I may even lurk here occasionally but I do worry that will give me the temptation to post my inane comments and posts.
On Skype though I hope I will resist to message people first. I hope I can wait until other people actually want to talk to me first.
I had to vent this out here because I don't know I just had to express how I feel to my favourite forums of all time where all my best friends ever are.
I love and care about so many people here... and I don't wanna disappear for a while but.... I just feel like I need to...  
Awww, Evie  You're breaking my heart, dude. We all love you to bits here, you must know that. I certainly don't find you boring in the slightest, I think you're a funny, sweet guy who has the capacity to make a lot of people happy - and one day, someone special very happy.
If you feel like that now, you're probably just on a low cycle, which we all have. You have a terminal case of Being Human, it's nothing to be ashamed of. Never stop talking to people, especially people who care about you as much as we do.
^Yep!
"Of course, everyone will claim they respect someone who tries to speak the truth, but in reality, this is a rare quality. Most respect those who speak truths they agree with, and their respect for the speaking only extends as far as their realm of personal agreement. It is less common, almost to the point of becoming a saintly virtue, that someone truly respects and loves the truth seeker, even when their conclusions differ wildly."
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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 19, 2015 at 7:18 pm
I hear you, brotha ... feeling down in the mouth myself lately with my own personal issues, and it's hard to feel good about myself right now.
All I can say is keep putting one foot in front of the other, and don't isolate yourself. We're your friends here.
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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 20, 2015 at 7:40 am
You seem like a lovely guy to me, you always make me smile and you offer kindness and support to others. I understand the need to take a break now and again, but I do hope you'll be back with us soon.
We can often be our own harshest critics, and think things about ourselves that almost nobody else would. Don't be too hard on yourself
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RE: Not feeling great basically.
December 20, 2015 at 10:07 am
Hehe I'm back already lol
I may need to take another break some other day, and maybe a little longer one (like at least a week) but probably not anytime soon.
Loving it here at AF.
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