Repetitive and obsessive thought loops.

[Rhizomorph13]

Why but? But why?
goats but there heads; why?
Sheep follow; but why?
Why; but there is only; why; but why do you say that?
similar to a thought loop I had whilst handcuffed to a gurney while the cop talked about how to get me to pee in a cup. I hadn't consumed water for a couple days and when I finally started drinking again it took a couple of days before I peed and the pee was dark brown and hurt coming out.

Rhizo

[Edwardo Piet]

That's scary.

[Rhizomorph13]

Yeah, police holds for psych evals are serious business. I can't blame my folks though, I was literally insane. I thought the TV was chronicling "their" attempts to come find me. Jerry Springer programs, Mr. Bucket commercials, Chef-boy-ar-dee commercials, "they" were sending me messages letting me know what they were going to do to me or how they were going to find me. I was seriously trying to shapeshift so they couldn't find me. Let's just say my epistemic structure left a little to be desired. Now I know that "they" are really just there to sell me stuff and loan me money so I can start businesses. A few of "them" want to convert me to their kooky religion but, whatever.

Rhizo

[Edwardo Piet]

And I believed I was God, Jesus, Satan, the Anti-Christ and an alien all ruled into one lol. It's nice knowing a fellow former nutcase (that's not an insult, by the way, I mean that in a good way).

[Oldandeasilyconfused]

Anyone else ever have this? It's so annoying at times. Can be relentless. I just wonder how common it is.

Well,I have this really annoying habit of whistling the first 7 notes only of "Rock Of Ages" over and over again,out of tune. It's quite unconscious,I don't always even realise I'm doing it. Can be quite embarrassing.

I also still think of my last girlfriend,who I loved to deeply,every day.(not constantly, but she's never far from my thoughts) I last saw her in 2002.

[leo-rcc]

Anyone else ever have this?

I see it all the time in people who insist that Darwin did not explain the origin of life on earth!

But he didn't.

[Edwardo Piet]

Indeed he didn't but they still insist on using that strawman.

[Edwardo Piet]

By the way, just an example of what my obsessive thoughts are like:

"[...]Never excite. Never excite. Never excite. Excite me. Excite me. Excite me. Excite me. Relieve me. Relieve me. Relieve me. Relax me. Relax me. Relax me. Relax me. Relax me. Relieve me. Defend me. Defend me. Defend me. Defend me. Defend me. Never obsess. Never obsess. Never obsess. Never obsess. Obsess less. Obsess less. Obsess less. Obsess less. Busy less. Busy less. Busy less busy less[...]"

""[...]Any relief. Any relief. Any relief. Any relief. Good relief. Good relief. Good relief. One relief. One relief. One relief. One joy. One joy. One joy. One joy. One joy. One pleasure. One pleasure. One pleasure. True pleasure. True pleasure. True pleasure. True pleasure.[...]"

Etc, etc, etc. And so on.

[Entropist]

[RachelSkates]

Ent: Good lord!!! That was bizarre. Thanks for posting it!

I guess this is like OD without the C.Obsessive thoughts without the urge to do anything with them.

Mine are less senseless and have to do with trauma anger. But I used to have to write- I think they call it logorhhia or something. I would have to write on anything, anywhere, in church, on the walls.....

I have about 7 boxes full of about 30 years of diaries.

I don't know why I do it. Pointless, really.