Ask a lost soul starting to awaken.

[Aegon]

Did your soul finally get a cup of coffee?

[Catholic_Lady]

Do you have any brothers and sisters?

[Mystic]

Do you have any brothers and sisters?

Two brothers, two sisters. One Older sister, one younger, one older brother, one younger. I am the middle child.

[chimp3]

Ask a way.

You need more information here. Three words doesn't make for a good thread starter - especially in light of the fact that we have an open thread right now about people not starting threads that merit valuable discussion. 

Can you perhaps expand on this more?

MK! Why? Why? Why? This is the internet. I will not go away! Why should we consider your ramblings

[brewer]

Why lost, for how long, and awaken from what?

[Mystic]

Why lost, for how long, and awaken from what?

I am lost because of lacking clarity on how to act because I depended on other than God for too long,  as a result, good and evil became a mosh of grey as opposed to clearly defined.

Whatever I didn't know, I didn't consider worth knowing with respect to the path.

Sins I don't perceive the consequences of, I assumed there was not much.

Awakening slowly as I am beginning to reflect over how rebellious I have been towards my Lord,  from a child till now, huge sins even as a child I will not get into, to disasters in teenage years, to orienting myself to dark whispers of a cursed power within me, to relying on Iblis dark spirit and illusions for too long, ungrateful when God blesses me, impatient when God tries me.

I took religion as a pastime, as some sort of game,  took reflection over Quran as intellectual masturbation rather then heeding it's warnings and taking it seriously.

It's become more and more clear that I been lying to myself,  I been masking myself as good while their is a dark nature within me, that has to be annihilated.

People assume I am good, because, of the deception I not only tricked them with, but even fooled myself for too long.

The onset of my illness has been one thing, I have been afraid to let go and ascend to something higher and noble. To comfortable with the illusionist Iblis feeding me an ego that is false but feels good.

I am starting to awaken slowly but surely, dosing myself with honesty here and there, in hope a sincere repentance will ensue sometime or another, with resolve to obey the True Master and King over us, as opposed to that delusional lie we call "I" which is really Iblis inspiring us with his spirit.

[chimp3]

Why lost, for how long, and awaken from what?

I am lost because of lacking clarity on how to act because I depended on other than God for too long,  as a result, good and evil became a mosh of grey as opposed to clearly defined.

Whatever I didn't know, I didn't consider worth knowing with respect to the path.

Sins I don't perceive the consequences of, I assumed there was not much.

Awakening slowly as I am beginning to reflect over how rebellious I have been towards my Lord,  from a child till now, huge sins even as a child I will not get into, to disasters in teenage years, to orienting myself to dark whispers of a cursed power within me, to relying on Iblis dark spirit and illusions for too long, ungrateful when God blesses me, impatient when God tries me.

I took religion as a pastime, as some sort of game,  took reflection over Quran as intellectual masturbation rather then heeding it's warnings and taking it seriously.

It's become more and more clear that I been lying to myself,  I been masking myself as good while their is a dark nature within me, that has to be annihilated.

People assume I am good, because, of the deception I not only tricked them with, but even fooled myself for too long.

The onset of my illness has been one thing, I have been afraid to let go and ascend to something higher and noble. To comfortable with the illusionist Iblis feeding me an ego that is false but feels good.

I am starting to awaken slowly but surely, dosing myself with honesty here and there, in hope a sincere repentance will ensue sometime or another, with resolve to obey the True Master and King over us, as opposed to that delusional lie we call "I" which is really Iblis inspiring us with his spirit.

Cue self flagellation! That will make it all better!

[brewer]

Do you believe that you have a religious persecution complex? That you are under constant threat of divine punishment?

[Mystic]

Do you believe that you have a religious persecution complex? That you are under constant threat of divine punishment?

I never cared for hell or heaven much to be honest.  I just don't want to die living only a vain life but (don't want to die living) a life that served the dark enemies of humans rather then the Master, King, and God of humans.

My biggest fear comes with respect to myself. If I fail, it will be due to myself and despite God's help.  

If I believe and act according to what I know I MUST do, then good and evil will become distinct and clear, and I will easily be an asset to humanity and not a curse.

[Anomalocaris]

Ask a way.

Why are you so persistently catatonic that you would come to think you have a soul?