(March 28, 2014 at 1:51 pm)My imaginary friend is GOD Wrote: Hmm... Blade... I have DEFINITELY been clinically diagnosed with general depression... I definitely have it...

I have DEFINITELY been diagnosed with ADHD... Right now, ADHD me is like, "Hmm... Every problem this causes me, I have learned how to deal with it better! Also, I am taking Vyvanse! It's supposed to help me CONCENTRATE better!" I definitely have both the inattentive and hyperactive parts of ADHD at the same time... The inattentive part is annoying ALL THE TIME and I function less well than a normal person... Things happen to me like, *puts a phone somewhere other than where I normally put it* *2 seconds later* ME: WHERE THE FUCK DID I JUST PUT MY PHONE... The hyperactive part is me being really aggressive and confrontational... *learned SELF CONTROL, no longer a problem * and my mind's racing all the time which sometimes means I can't sleep...

I might also have GAD... hmm... I have been really anxious all my life, affecting EVERYTHING about me, yet it has still not usually been debilitating to me very often... When GAD disorder is debilitating me I'm like, "WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE RIGHT NOW?! I HATE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE! GOD I WISH I HAD A PILL THAT WOULD FIX THIS"... I have previously used prescription drugs recreationally... for some reason, the combination of a *muscle relaxer* and *some fucking thing that made me feel like I was floating* was FANTASTIC. Apparently a "muscle relaxer" also relaxes your brain... it kind of works like all drugs designed to help with anxiety... For some reason, me being on any prescribed drug that helps with anxiety is BETTER.

I think my psychiatrist right now thinks I have GAD and has not yet told ME this... Every time I visit him, he asks the question: "What is your anxiety level right now on a scale from 1 to 10?"


WTF DOES YOUR LIFE SUCK MORE THAN MINE?!

(March 28, 2014 at 1:57 pm)My imaginary friend is GOD Wrote:

(March 28, 2014 at 1:51 pm)My imaginary friend is GOD Wrote: Hmm... Blade... I have DEFINITELY been clinically diagnosed with general depression... I definitely have it...

I have DEFINITELY been diagnosed with ADHD... Right now, ADHD me is like, "Hmm... Every problem this causes me, I have learned how to deal with it better! Also, I am taking Vyvanse! It's supposed to help me CONCENTRATE better!" I definitely have both the inattentive and hyperactive parts of ADHD at the same time... The inattentive part is annoying ALL THE TIME and I function less well than a normal person... Things happen to me like, *puts a phone somewhere other than where I normally put it* *2 seconds later* ME: WHERE THE FUCK DID I JUST PUT MY PHONE... The hyperactive part is me being really aggressive and confrontational... *learned SELF CONTROL, no longer a problem * and my mind's racing all the time which sometimes means I can't sleep...

I might also have GAD... hmm... I have been really anxious all my life, affecting EVERYTHING about me, yet it has still not usually been debilitating to me very often... When GAD disorder is debilitating me I'm like, "WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE RIGHT NOW?! I HATE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE! GOD I WISH I HAD A PILL THAT WOULD FIX THIS"... I have previously used prescription drugs recreationally... for some reason, the combination of a *muscle relaxer* and *some fucking thing that made me feel like I was floating* was FANTASTIC. Apparently a "muscle relaxer" also relaxes your brain... it kind of works like all drugs designed to help with anxiety... For some reason, me being on any prescribed drug that helps with anxiety is BETTER.

I think my psychiatrist right now thinks I have GAD and has not yet told ME this... Every time I visit him, he asks the question: "What is your anxiety level right now on a scale from 1 to 10?"


WTF DOES YOUR LIFE SUCK MORE THAN MINE?!

Well lets just say I know exactly how you feel then. I liked taking Vicodin (hydrocodone) and it made me feel so happy and relaxed....too relaxed. I however know that feeling....chaos in the brain, the feeling of 20 TVs running in your head all at the same time...all demanding attention. So no pissing contest, I totally can empathize with you. Sorry did not mean to over look ya.

Thinking I'm going through what they call a "psychotic break". It's interesting, I'll give it that.

(March 28, 2014 at 1:57 pm)My imaginary friend is GOD Wrote:

(March 28, 2014 at 1:51 pm)My imaginary friend is GOD Wrote: Hmm... Blade... I have DEFINITELY been clinically diagnosed with general depression... I definitely have it...

I have DEFINITELY been diagnosed with ADHD... Right now, ADHD me is like, "Hmm... Every problem this causes me, I have learned how to deal with it better! Also, I am taking Vyvanse! It's supposed to help me CONCENTRATE better!" I definitely have both the inattentive and hyperactive parts of ADHD at the same time... The inattentive part is annoying ALL THE TIME and I function less well than a normal person... Things happen to me like, *puts a phone somewhere other than where I normally put it* *2 seconds later* ME: WHERE THE FUCK DID I JUST PUT MY PHONE... The hyperactive part is me being really aggressive and confrontational... *learned SELF CONTROL, no longer a problem * and my mind's racing all the time which sometimes means I can't sleep...

I might also have GAD... hmm... I have been really anxious all my life, affecting EVERYTHING about me, yet it has still not usually been debilitating to me very often... When GAD disorder is debilitating me I'm like, "WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE RIGHT NOW?! I HATE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE! GOD I WISH I HAD A PILL THAT WOULD FIX THIS"... I have previously used prescription drugs recreationally... for some reason, the combination of a *muscle relaxer* and *some fucking thing that made me feel like I was floating* was FANTASTIC. Apparently a "muscle relaxer" also relaxes your brain... it kind of works like all drugs designed to help with anxiety... For some reason, me being on any prescribed drug that helps with anxiety is BETTER.

I think my psychiatrist right now thinks I have GAD and has not yet told ME this... Every time I visit him, he asks the question: "What is your anxiety level right now on a scale from 1 to 10?"


WTF DOES YOUR LIFE SUCK MORE THAN MINE?!

My suggestion for Blade: try every possible psychiatrist that can prescribe you drugs until one of them does what the FUCK you want him to do... Read things people have said about each of them on the internet beforehand and decide if it's even worth it...

Well thanks for the Advice, I actually found one that seems to be the best bet. Currently my anxiety is nearly gone. I think I need little bit stronger ADHD meds, and I think I am golden. I am going to talk to him about Klonopin's withdrawals. I have a question, did you run into the issue of being smarter than your psychologist and put up logical barriers and told them what they wanted to hear?

(March 28, 2014 at 2:05 pm)bladevalant546 Wrote: Well thanks for the Advice, I actually found one that seems to be the best bet. Currently my anxiety is nearly gone. I think I need little bit stronger ADHD meds, and I think I am golden. I am going to talk to him about Klonopin's withdrawals. I have a question, did you run into the issue of being smarter than your psychologist and put up logical barriers and told them what they wanted to hear?

Hmm... my psychologist = my "talk therapist"
My psychiatrist = "the guy that prescribes me drugs"

NOPE. I don't give a FUCK what either of these people want to hear... I am paying them to FIX me... They BETTER FUCKING DO IT...

I've suffered from depression my whole adult life. I've been in and out of mental institutions since I was sixteen, and I've been on medication my whole life. I had to stop using drugs as a coping mechanism, learn to regulate my sleep-cycle, exercise, ensure I always took my medication and find non-destructive ways to express my pain to get it under control. It's a daily struggle, and some days are much better than others, but I haven't had any severe, I-feel-like-cutting-myself depression like I used to in five years or so.

Lately, though, all the upkeep I have to do just to maintain sanity is wearing me down. I fear I'm losing a little bit of the "fight" in me.

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(March 28, 2014 at 1:21 pm)KUSA Wrote: If you feel it all or most of the time it is because you chose to.

I don't know which bothers me more about statements like this, the arrogance or the ignorance.

(March 28, 2014 at 1:21 pm)KUSA Wrote: I gave you some ideas in a different thread you had about levels of happiness. It applies to this as well.

In a nutshell it is all about self discipline and control. People seem to think that they can't control how they feel but it's simply not true. Being depressed or having anxiety is actually a choice.

Now I'm not saying that a traumatic event won't get you down but that is temporary as all things pass. What I am talking about is general depression or anxiety. If you feel it all or most of the time it is because you chose to.

That really sounds kinda harsh to say but it's true. I know you are saying well my brain has a chemical imbalance and I can't help it. Guess what, the brain can be rewired and you are the only one that can do it. It doesn't happen overnight and it starts with rejecting the bad feelings. If you are depressed don't act like you are just reject it and get involved in something productive.

The only people that are incapable of rewiring their brain are those with very low Iqs. They can't help it. If you have average or better intelligence then you can use your intellect to change and grow.

Always be in control of your emotions not the other way around.

You sound like my boyfriend. He's been through two tours in Iraq and has been through A LOT. He has never taken medication and he is one of the happiest people I know. He says the same thing and it's true.

Quote:In a nutshell it is all about self discipline and control. People seem to think that they can't control how they feel but it's simply not true. Being depressed or having anxiety is actually a choice.

And that is the truth ^

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I have social anxiety and every time I go out I have to talk myself down out of a panic attack. But that does not hold me back. I am young, I'm healthy, I have the world by the balls and I am not going to let my stupid brain stop me from loving my life.

(March 28, 2014 at 2:31 pm)No_God Wrote: You sound like my boyfriend. He's been through two tours in Iraq and has been through A LOT. He has never taken medication and he is one of the happiest people I know. He says the same thing and it's true.

It's not true. It's bullshit.

It's also one person applying their own situation to everyone else and assuming that everyone else's mind works exactly the same way as theirs does. The brain is complex. We're all hardwired differently, and for one person to assume that others should simply have control over something because they do personally, is the sheer height of arrogant ignorance.

Depression is a mood disorder. Sure, some people can get depressed and make themselves feel better, but they're not the same fucking thing.

Strange I have a best friend who also toured in Afghanistan and Iraq and suffers a small form of PTSD for things he did there. He was a paratrooper and we were smoking weed when he started talking to me about it. So again, science trumps personal experience.

Quick edit....here is an article with science. It will explain how your brain works and why depressed people are...well depressed.

http://www.health.harvard.edu/newsweek/w...ession.htm