...And then there are the days He is silent.

[Simon Moon]

So today was the day of days.

It was time to pay the piper and our deal sill had not come through/funding has not cleared the bank.

We were supposed to bring a 480.00 for back taxes on the land a check for 38.00 for processing of the loan and a 8500 check for the balance of our down payment.

We had everything except the 8500.00 and no way for anything to happen. Out of belief in what I know of God we went. I not saying I had faith he was going to make the deal go through, I am saying we went because I know God would make things clear. (know whether we were supposed to peruse this house or not.)

So on a new construction loan closing you have to close on the house designs, modifications and the rest, and on the loan paper work. The loan paper work is where I knew we'd be in trouble. The builder office (2 hours away) is where we met the builder and loan people. and we were sweating it pretty hard saying our own prayers in traffic all the way up there.

Then they rushed us to the front of the line when we got to the builder, and sat us down and started the signing fest. I signed the builders stuff for like an hour. Had my wife at the end check the email and phone, and every stupid facebook notification and instagram notification I got before then, I almost knocked over the table to check my phone to see if it was wire transfer we have been waiting on. no dice.

Then the dreaded finance part. first thing she asked for checks (before me wife had even come back. it was obvious we had an envelope on the table and it had checks in it and one was a cashiers check) So I played dumb as I was trying to motion my wife back into the room. the loan lady reaches for the check and pushes them towards me telling me to check in here I do. I said two checks she asked for the amounts, I gave them to her and she said that's what I'm looking for... I'm like wuuuut??? But I did not say anything and just waited for Trich.

She comes through the door looking at me and shakes her head, then sees the loan lady with the two checks and start to go into a song and dance we had practice, and I was like hold on Trich. mrs. so an so, was going to tell us how we are paid up on EVERYTHING.. Then she goes though the hold contract/costs, and it comes back with a +balance of 8,000.00 Meaning.... Someone? Paid. the down payment. on our home. match what we put in and filled in the rest!!!!

They have no idea who just that it's paid. My mom dad and her mom (plus our guys/employees and you 'good people') are the only ones who know we were closing on our house today and knew we did not have the money.

Idk what to say. I knew God would come through... but not like this I guess there is still tons I don't know. Or maybe one of you came through I truly dn't know. I do have paper work that shows me owning the money in the builder's contract and I show a positive balance in the closing construction contract. This is such a big deal for us. it takes off so much weight of gearing up for the summer and in the way of getting the house and fence we wanted.

If any of you ever want to see the paper work I'll show you...

The salesman said he got the paper work a few days ahead of us and saw what he thought was an error, but did not want to get our hopes up. he said he has no idea how what or why this happened. nothing like it has ever happened in the 20+ years he had been there. but it's all legit.

Hope while in the impossible.. Over and over and over again. That is God.

Like peter in the lake, If we will follow Him God will take us out Deep and well beyond anyone's ability to help us. So that when we do get that Help we know it was God. I do not know how people can live life devoid of any hope any miraculous intervention any reliable "help me God get out of this one."

I followed God out into the lake and He got quiet. So I kept walking based on what I knew of God and where I was supposed to be, and low and behold He was waiting for me when I got to the other side!

Then shortly there afterwords the flood gates opened again, and I've already got orders for months to come. and better yet I've got direction again.

How can you possibly worship a god that would help you get your loans and property, yet let over 9 million children under 5, die every year in pain, hunger and terror? And I am sure many of their parents are are praying just as hard as you ever have.

The Indonesian tsunami of 2004 took 250,000 people of all ages, and your god sits back and lets that many children under 5 die every 1.5 weeks.

That you believe that your your god is good by making sure your loan went through and you got your property, yet sits back and lets children die in vast numbers without doing a thing, just shows how your religion has caused you to lose your moral compass.

A god that would act like this, deserves to be fought against by every moral man and woman on the planet.

The worst possible universe I can imagine, is one where your god actually exists.