(August 21, 2025 at 1:09 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:(August 21, 2025 at 12:38 am)emjay Wrote: That's basically just like how I used to feel, not long ago either, but sadly that injury and following illness turned it all on it's head. Now I'd give anything to get back to that state but it's going to take a long time I think, sadly. As it stands I can barely remember my life from just about three months ago, just before my injury. Now it feels like I have to redefine everything and reunderstand everything from scratch, and it's really hard and sometimes terrifying, and I wouldn't wish this state on anyone.
What I garner from those questions I asked of both you and myself is that living in the moment is more important than worrying about a future I cannot control.
Are you talking about mindfulness? I try to do it and it does help sometimes (for instance going for a walk overall I'd say the times I was successful at just focusing on my breath, and the sensations etc was better than when I failed and got lost in, usually negative, trains of thought, and my walks tend to contain a bit of both) but I'm not good at doing it consistently, sadly, and this depression has made it even harder focusing on or finding meaning in the present or the future. My mental state is just a big blur at the moment.
