There are plenty of believers pretending to believe, all with a varying scale of beliefs. There are closeted atheists in the clergy for example that become atheist later in life and can't/won't leave their profession for a myriad of reasons.
And besides, the belief in a god is engaging in pretend. So I guess you're right, you are all pretending, even if it is just self-delusion.
And besides, the belief in a god is engaging in pretend. So I guess you're right, you are all pretending, even if it is just self-delusion.
If the hypothetical idea of an afterlife means more to you than the objectively true reality we all share, then you deserve no respect.