More proof god hates me

[zentor]

want more proof?

i woke up thi smorning saying i will be okay

got on SWGEMU (SWG was the only game i had ot lvie for but they shut it down, emu is the emu of th eold version)
aND its all ABUNCH OF FFUCKING AFKERS AND ASSHOLES

AND THIS GUY HE KILLING AL THE SPAWNS AND JUST LAUGHED AT ME

*edited out*

[Paul the Human]

[zentor]

yeah soryr i edited out some of t that stuff

but i just cant take it

THE DAY i say i wake up and i will be okay

gods already ready to fuck everythign up for me

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please try to understand

i do my best to be stable, do college and work

but the challenges i face may seem like nothing, but they feel like beyond anything i could imagine

[Faith No More]

This whole 'god is fucking me over' thing is becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy. You believe god is fucking you over, so you look for any perceived slight in your life as proof. If god existed, I seriously doubt he/she/it would be screwing with your video games. As it has been said to you before, you need to drop this line of thinking and just relax. I don't think you can see how your train of thought is just making things worse for you, but I think it would really help you to stop obsessing over things.

Also, don't forget to getting real help from real professionals.

[Paul the Human]

Zentor, I can't decide whether you're completely full of shit or a perfect example of the dangers of religious beliefs. Either way... you need help. You need professional help.

I know you say you've tried that and it didn't take, but that only means that you need to try again. If the persona that you are showing us here is, at all, an accurate reflection of your real mental state... You should probably go commit yourself and get the help you need. If you are full of shit, as I can't completely rule out, then... Knock it off!

[zentor]

Paul this last year i have been hospitalized several times!
and i have no insurance anymore and i was hospitaled 2 times this year for 2 weeks each, and have huge medical bills

we are waiting to see if i get approved for medicaid - i am taking the lithium my doctor last subscribed...and even he says just to keep taking the lithium

i have been through months of CBT and DBT - none of tha thelps when i am in distress

im beginging to think the whole psychology treatment is bullshit, and the meds just make me worse

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and tbh, i am even more unhappy at the hospital - i always get a roomate who is a pig - an di just "act nice" so they let me out.

everyday they ask me if i want to die, and i say yes, (i stayed at the hospital for a month one time becaues of this)

so now i just say nah im ok...

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because the meds dont do shit!!! and CBT doesnt help!!!

[Autumnlicious]

That is enough.

You need to consult with a professional.

We are not your therapist.

All points have been reiterated multiple times.

No more.

Consult your professional therapist. Closed.