RE: I'm not leaving until I convert someone.
February 27, 2014 at 9:02 pm
(This post was last modified: February 27, 2014 at 9:03 pm by *Deidre*.)
(February 27, 2014 at 8:46 pm)Cinjin Wrote: (February 27, 2014 at 8:41 pm)Deidre32 Wrote: There are even some days, I miss fragments of that 'old life.'
What fragments????
(...and can you answer that question without using the words 'social aspect')
I sometimes miss the prayers. The traditions. The holiday rituals. Not social, in any way. I was always pretty private about my faith, and perhaps, I miss that solace I found in a fantasy.
It took me a VERY long time to not only accept that what I believed was not based on truth, but it took me a long time, to let it go. Even when I knew, it wasn't truth., it still took me some time.
When you are brought up from the time you can talk, as a kid, in the faith (any faith/religion)--life without that crutch is very scary. But, I tell myself, if there is a god, ''it'' is nothing like I knew. Or I was taught.
If he doesn't exist, I'm ok with that, too. It's in letting go of having to know, where I finally found peace in being Agnostic.
I sometimes miss though, losing myself in a fantasy. But, I would never go back. I'm at peace now, but my point in commenting to the OP, was...it's a long ass process. lol :p