I spent 8 weeks of my life thinking I was Jesus.

[Edwardo Piet]

What do you mean 'was mentally ill and delusional' ? :p

Ok, correction:

An awful awful lot more so. I was very very ill, and hospitalized.

In what way did you feel you were Jesus Ev? /What attributes did you think you had?

I just thought I was both God AND the son of God, I knew fuck all about Jesus as the Jesus from the Bible. And still do know fuck all about the Bible basically. I've only read bits that are quoted online.

EvF

[Purple Rabbit]

In his almighty state Evie could put on every attribute he likes. At random. Without blinking an eye. Unscrutinized by peer review. Without the burden of proof and notwithstanding orbital teapots. Defying modal logic, formal logic and quantum logic at the same time. Without shame or second thought. Without becoming more complete or less complete, certainly not becoming more or less complete.

I say, free attribution to the peoples. They have the right. On every corner of every street. For it's a great thing to be blinded by faith and live life in a dream...so they say.

[fr0d0]

I just thought I was both God AND the son of God, I knew fuck all about Jesus as the Jesus from the Bible. And still do know fuck all about the Bible basically. I've only read bits that are quoted online.

So you knew about God? ...I'm just wondering if you could be more precise, as your point of reference seems so inaccurate.

As you know, I experienced such a high ...I was also pretty ignorant although cultural influence gave me ideas. For me it was a feeling that I was indestructible; had perfect insight; was perfectly wise... and a feeling of this being a moment of intense high... possibly balancing an extended period of worry that is adolescence.

[Edwardo Piet]

The feeling that I was indestructible or 'invincible' was the predominant and first feeling (and belief) to come up. I also thought I was infinitely wise and all the rest - I believed I was God (cos I was insane and that's why I was hosptialized for it). I'd never even been a moderate believer of any kind before then, never mind believing that I AM 'he' lol.

I knew about God? No - because it was all bullshit because I was insane.

EvF

[fr0d0]

The 'God' bit is meaningless to me in your explanation ...as you say yourself it's meaningless ??? So you thought you were something you had no conception of??

I had no idea what God was either at the time. I had childish conceptions of a bloke in the sky etc.. I'm guessing that you're saying you felt something you attributed as supernatural and therefore divine?

[Edwardo Piet]

I thought I was invincible with omniscience and omnipotence and I was in everywhere and moreover - WAS everything. I thought I was like consciousness and everything and everyone else was unconsciousness. I thought I was like the eye of the storm. I also believed I was Jesus off and on and at one point even Satan (or once or twice) or an alien. That's about it really (I think - my memory is missing a lot from then).

EvF

[TruthWorthy]

I thought I was invincible with omniscience and omnipotence and I was in everywhere and moreover - WAS everything. I thought I was like consciousness and everything and everyone else was unconsciousness. I thought I was like the eye of the storm. I also believed I was Jesus off and on and at one point even Satan (or once or twice) or an alien. That's about it really (I think - my memory is missing a lot from then).

EvF

ah! difficult times, no need to dig it up into your memory. I've been there, maybe slightly worse than that. Yeah, the imaginative power of the brain is much greater than most will come to understand. You'll be alright, just stick with people who are willing to look after your best interests.

[Edwardo Piet]

If I can find someone lol.

EvF

[fr0d0]

Sadness is something else tho'. Recalling euphoric episodes isn't painful, only the issue that you had them at all. But these are healing mechanisms I think/ outbursts as release. In my case there were vast periods of sadness... those were the bits you'd rather forget.

Thanks for sharing that anyway Evie.

I am the storm...

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x40ajn_...here_music

[Edwardo Piet]

fr0d0,

Fucking awesome song indeed. Glad to have shared it with you - and you've found a really awesome quality vid of it I didn't know was around.

But why did you post it here? lol.


EvF