(June 29, 2016 at 8:09 am)Veritas_Vincit Wrote: I know most people on this forum don't, for those who believe (or used to):
- How do you define 'God'?
- Why do you (or did you) believe that this God exists?
I feel like I am interrupting the flow of this thread, but I worked a long day and this is the first opportunity I have had to respond.
I don't recall actually defining 'God', as it seemed absurd to.
I believed that God existed because I was raised with that belief. Plus, as a young child (under the age of ten, I think) I had dreams about God. In fact, I became baptized because of a dream that I had about God. Although, as a teen, I began rejecting religious teachings as soon as I discovered I did not have to accept them.
I was twenty when I had a religious experience that made me consider the man/god relationship as one that was sort of symbiotic in nature. An interdependence between the existence of God depending upon the belief of man, and vice-versa.
Then, in my thirties I became interested in Matthew Fox's Creation Spirituality, which was a much better alternative.
In my forties I decided I should learn more about the Bible and scripture, so I attended more traditional classes. Again, I would have dreams and visions. While meditating one day I had an experience that began leading me away from such things. As time went on, I began to understand how my mind and body worked in conjunction to create certain ecstatic experiences. What I call the 'pleasure principle' and how addictive that can be. I've never been addicted to drugs, but the ecstatic experience can be very addictive.
In my fifties, I began embracing simplicity over complexity of ideas. Although, it is ironic that the idea of simplicity was, at the time, "inspired" through a poem that came over me. I thought it inspired by God, in fact.
I'm nearing 60 now, and I consider myself an atheist. Although, maybe I am not? I thought I was Christian at one time, that is until it was pointed out to me that I had to believe in Jesus as God; an idea that I absolutely rejected. Maybe one day, someone will point out to me that I am not an atheist. Who knows?
Anyway, that was why I believed in God for such a long time.
"My imagination makes me human and makes me a fool; it gives me all the world and exiles me from it."
Ursula K. Le Guin
Ursula K. Le Guin