Christians - Aware you worship a virgin?

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"Were you able to justify ALL of your experience and do you mind digging a little deeper and sharing some of those."

One of the main experiences and the most easiest to explain away was my personal spiritual struggle. Oftentimes at night I would feel as if someone or force had sat on my chest and I would hear voices and would be paralyzed for a minute or so completely unable to move. When I cried out to god in my mind since my mouth felt as if it was covered and my voice could not come out, it would release me. In the ministry I believed that this was a direct attack by demons because of my active role in wresting souls from future perdition through my ministry. After some research I found that they have a sleep disorder called hallucinatory sleep paralysis which was the condition I suffer from to this day. You can read a quick article on it at this link http://www.essortment.com/all/paralysissleep_rauu.htm so much for the demon attacks.

I found many links with the placebo effect and faith healing, also, when it comes to people falling out on the altar with my spoken word or a glance (being slain in the spirit) the subconscious mind and some hypnosis have alot to do with that. I think that most evangelists whether intentional or unintentionally use hypnosis techniques to influence their followers. More on this later.

"Also you said you worshiped out of fear of God? Why do you think that was?"

The fear I felt was more out of respect for the lord but the greatest fear I endured was the fear of hell. The question that always nagged at me was as stated earlier "if I was to die right now would the lord deem me worthy of inheriting the kingdom"? I was always worried about being prepared for the end. Pentecostalism in the extreme rejoice when bad things happen thinking they are the fulfillment of biblical end time prophecy and signs as interpreted by themselves.