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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 1, 2017 at 6:10 pm
NFL Pick Em League, By Brian37
6 months since
The cycle repeats
But this time without
Mom's Rubber Ducky
An Oklahoma Hillbilly
Will be standing in
In her memory
Still not the same
Last season
I stood up well
But 8 weeks in
She rose and I fell
From week to week
I would read the list
At her bedside
So she could make her picks
With joy she looked forword
Sometimes puzzled
Trying to choose
Between two even teams
And like a game show
If she didn't know
She'd say "pass"
We'd get back to it later
She would razz me
When she'd beat me
But Washington
We both agreed
Cause thats where
She raised me
In the suburbs
Of Ol D.C.
But her stand in
Was born in Texas
If I lose to him
What a mess
But she'd get a kick
If thus the case
She loves to tease me
My Rubber Ducky.
John will surely
Embarrass me
It would get a smile
She'd enjoy to see.
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 9, 2017 at 9:14 am
It is my first birthday without my mom. We'd be going to our favorite stake place. She'd be excited for me, spoil me. And tomorrow will be the season opener Redskins vs Eagles. And I wont be able to do either with her.
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 9, 2017 at 3:49 pm
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I'm so sorry Brian. 
It must be really hard to have a birthday without your mom when there are so many memories with her on this day. I hope you have the best day you can under the circumstances. <3
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 9, 2017 at 4:08 pm
(September 9, 2017 at 3:49 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote: I'm so sorry Brian.
It must be ready hard to have a birthday without your mom when there are so many memories with her on this day. I hope you have the best day you can under the circumstances. <3
Thank you. Out of everyone here, in this thread, you have been the most supportive, now if I could only convince you like I could not my mom, that a god is superfluous, I would have a great birthday. But just like her, to take the support you can get and value it.
Funny thing is, outside my mom, nobody made my birthday a national holiday, metaphorically speaking. Most of the time I get Happy Birthday. I sometimes envy those who have those surprise parties, but then I realize the earth is far older than me.
There really is no good birthday wish or gift for me. I don't see that as good or bad, but just reality. My mom was a 365 day a year gift, and this is just one day on a planet of 7 billion in a 4 billion year old history. If time had allowed her to survive longer, that would have been my best gift. But that didn't happen, so now I can only think of what we had, and until I die, to me nothing will ever replace that.
I can't have my mom back on my birthday, but I do have our memories, and that is priceless. I do know that if the Redskins win tomorrow, she would smile. If they lose, she would roll her eyes at my ranting and say, "How does shouting at the TV help?"
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 16, 2017 at 5:41 pm
Watching my first Ohio State game without my mom. They are playing Army. This sucks not being able to call her when they score or watch the game with her.
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 17, 2017 at 8:44 am
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 20, 2017 at 1:44 pm
(September 16, 2017 at 5:41 pm)Brian37 Wrote: Watching my first Ohio State game without my mom. They are playing Army. This sucks not being able to call her when they score or watch the game with her.
So very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved mother. From your avatar, I knew that she had died but didn't know about this wonderful thread that you had created, now in honor of her life and yours. My deepest and most heartfelt condolences.
Best,
Dawn
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 21, 2017 at 7:08 am
(September 20, 2017 at 1:44 pm)Jehanne Wrote: (September 16, 2017 at 5:41 pm)Brian37 Wrote: Watching my first Ohio State game without my mom. They are playing Army. This sucks not being able to call her when they score or watch the game with her.
So very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved mother. From your avatar, I knew that she had died but didn't know about this wonderful thread that you had created, now in honor of her life and yours. My deepest and most heartfelt condolences.
Best,
Dawn
Thank you. I am coping ok, and the support I have had from those here and John and my younger sister have helped tremendously.
I wish John(Rubber Ducky) in the NFL thread, and my friend Bob could have met her in person. They did at least get to talk to her and see her face on Skype.
If you had my mom in your life, you always had a rock solid support and love. I wish everyone reading this could have known her. I cannot say enough good things about what a wonderful mom and human being she was.
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 21, 2017 at 9:09 pm
Fuck. I just saw this thread. I'm a bit behind the times Brian, but my condolences for the loss man. A true friend is tough to let go of regardless of the blood line.
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RE: My mom is dying, going to need an ear.
September 22, 2017 at 9:38 am
(September 21, 2017 at 9:09 pm)Court Jester Wrote: Fuck. I just saw this thread. I'm a bit behind the times Brian, but my condolences for the loss man. A true friend is tough to let go of regardless of the blood line.
Doesn't matter who you are, when you love family that much it always hurts. But I still have my memories of her and she would not want me to be miserable and sad forever. She would want me and I do, to think about the good times and the fun we had together.
Our favorite thing to do was simple, go shopping at the dollar store. Sounds mundane to many, but it was fun for us because we'd be silly with each other. One of the things she would do is go down the kids toy isle and offer to buy me a toddlers toy just to tease me. She's also pick up a religious themed item knowing I am an atheist and offer to buy it for me. I'd laugh and roll my eyes. It was her way of saying she loved me.
Sometimes while we were there and I would get one up on her, she would playfully raise her voice, and I would laugh and shush her. She was only joking but what would it look like if she shouted everybody comes running and sees an old lady in a scooter screaming. I would joke back, "Are you trying to get me arrested?" She would give me a playful fake smile and respond, "Not little ol innocent me."
We had silly car games we would play passing the golf courses where we lived. She'd sit in the back of the van, the game was I would say, "FOUR", then she would say another number to which I would have to subtract to get back to 4. The game was she could not repeat the same number.
Sometimes to be silly while driving I'd say, "Count the trees". Which is impractical especially while moving. But she'd playfully answer with some number.
On longer trips she knew I hate heights but would joke with me about cell towers and say something like, "Hey go change the light at the top of that tower."
And 12 years ago when I first moved down here, we'd thumb wrestle but she was always big cheat and would end up grabbing my thumb with her free hand to either smush it down or bend it back. She was strong too and sometimes when she did that bending backwards it would hurt.
And how many moms would play table top football waiting for food at a restaurant with adult son? My mom would double tap the football knowing that was not the rule, and I would push the football back as a penalty and she would laugh.
Just simple things like that. But the most amazing thing about her after she decided not to do anything more, was her courage. Even in her last days she tried to keep my spirits up. I know that the night before she died, she stuck around that last night, because I had to go home, but kept telling her over and over, even though she was on heavy pain meds, that I would see her in the morning.
When she had moments of lucidity and i would try to get up to go to the bathroom or out to smoke, she would grab my thumb very tightly to get me to smile not wanting to let me go. I did smile but it was through tears knowing what was coming.
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