My mom is dying, going to need an ear.

[The Valkyrie]

Brian.

I am so very sorry to read this.

My best wishes and thoughts go with you both, and your family.

If you need anyone to talk to, feel free to PM me.

[AFTT47]

I wish I could offer you something Brian but being mildly autistic, I'm not very good at this kind of thing.

I don't know what will help you cope but if you want to make her last days as good as possible for her, try to find some strength within and show it. It will greatly ease her burden if she sees a son she is confident has the strength and fortitude to carry on without her.

[Brian37]

I wish I could offer you something Brian but being mildly autistic, I'm not very good at this kind of thing.

I don't know what will help you cope but if you want to make her last days as good as possible for her, try to find some strength within and show it. It will greatly ease her burden if she sees a son she is confident has the strength and fortitude to carry on without her.

Thanks. It is exactly what everyone is saying, including hospice. Mom actually did her best to make me smile today and did so. Right now I am calm because of that, but I know I will fall apart again. Right now what I need is voice chat and or phone and some have already volunteered that. Never been into PMs online. 

Today we thumb wrestled, more that she held my hand and wouldn't let go, but that was her way of saying she loved doing that with me. We also played blackjack. I did the dealing and reading her cards for her and also played Yahtzee, again I did all the writing and rolling of dice. The biggest thing that helped was her smiling. Being able to post about all this in this thread helps too. 

To everyone  in this thread, thanks for all the responses.

[Brian37]

Even with prior health issues, having to leave her miles away or even hours away driving is terrifying, much more now. I didn't understand for a long time why my mom sent me away when my dad was dying, but now i understand. It is hell watching your loved one go through this, in retrospect I know now why she sent me away. She was trying to protect me from the emotional pain. Going over there soon, just called the nurse, she is still responding and even talking a little.

[Catholic_Lady]

Keep us updated, Brian. We are all thinking of you. 

[LastPoet]

Oh shit man, sorry to hear that.

[MTL]

Really sorry to hear of this heartbreaking time.

I didn't take part in the skype experience you referred to,
but I'm glad to hear you and your mom have had such a great relationship.

Thoughts with you and yours as you cope with this.

[Brian37]

She did it again today, made me smile, well as much as can be. I was upset about not being able to figure out how to get her voice mail messages off my cell phone because they only hold them 30 days. I called the cell phone co up. They told me to go to the local store. Went there but they said they couldn't do it. Frustrated I called the cell phone co up again, finally a very nice lady told me how I could do it.

But my mom once again did some thumb wrestling with me to get me to smile.  Unbelievably brave and always concerned with me.

[Amarok]

I know this feeling . I know how torturous it can be . Hold her tight and draw all the time you can with her . Do so and you won't regret it when it's finally time.

[Brian37]

I hate my fucking cell phone. It has a extremely sensitive touch screen. It is was bad enough before finding out that it would be bounced around in my pocket to the point of muting my sound settings only to find out later I had accidentally muted it. Twice since finding out this has happened, and I've panicked calling them up to see if I had missed a call from them. I did manage to transfer my mom's voice mail messages to my computer though. I just cant stand that she cant answer her own cell phone anymore. I miss calling her at night, I miss her calling me in the morning. I have to call the hall desk now. I HATE THAT! I know I cant do anything about reality, but this FUCKING SUCKS!